Feeling Sad

Feeling sad today because it is the anniversary of the death of a good friend 2 years ago. I know she is "in a better place" and all that, but I miss her cheerfulness, her enthusiasm, her positive nature (though at times I didn't feel like being positive and the "things could be worse" would make me cringe!). I know she had a very strong faith and I guess it is cheering to me to realize she must have accepted what she knew was coming. She became my guardian angel and today I feel as if she might be somewhere close trying to cheer me up. 

I have been moving my large collection of books from two bookcases and the basement to three new bookcases and as I look at them all and think "how did I get this many? I'll never be able to read them all", I remember her asking me about once a month "how many books do you think you have? About 100?, more?" Well yes Dear Angel, I think more!! 

Though I only knew this friend for several years, she became and still is a big part of my life. I saved a phone message I received from her when she was in a nursing home and sometimes I listen to it and sometimes I can't bear to hear it--even though she was only weeks from passing it was cheerful and hopeful and you couldn't tell that she had a worry in the world by the sound of her voice.  

I know there are lessons to be learned from her, I just wish she was here in person to teach them to me.

                  When a close friend unexpectedly leaves us, a piece of our heart is                                                                        broken forever.